I have drafts, more drafts in my head than the ones in my journal. I leave my writings half done and abandon them before it sees the light of day. I convinced myself that it was because I don’t like what my blog looked like, So I changed it. I made a video on my phone, one like the last time, but It’s still chilling in my phone.
I had to ask myself “What is the problem Tomilola?” and I have many interesting answers to that question which I will share. One of my answers is this blog post.
Hiiiii, How are you doing? Welcome back and I hope you like what I have done with the place? 😉
I feel very disorganized and I am afraid it will show in my writing, my lack of direction these days and my absolute lack of structure. I decided to give an ‘update’ sort of. It’s no news that I got married but what you most of you don’t know is that I quit my job.
I knew from the beginning of the year that I was going to quit, one of my goals for the year was ‘Quit current Job’ but my reason for wanting to quit was just not convincing enough to myself not to talk of mentioning it to another person. How do you say that you want to quit because one person was making you feel miserable on the job? I know my mum didn’t think it was a good enough reason. I had to suck it up and just get over it.
I had now started losing interest in the Job I once loved and it didn’t make much sense to be stuck there. I thought to myself “It’s just a job and I will get another one” abi? Apparently it is just me that thinks this way or not? Like I actually didn’t mind staying home for a while without a job if it meant I will not be sad about doing what I am meant to do. My mum asked me to keep praying about it while she subtly told me that she doesn’t approve. I did and honestly, I wasn’t ready for an answer. I spoke to my fiance then about it and he’s always had the dream to work with his wife growing his Photography Company, he told me about it and we decided to give it a shot after we got married.
One of the hardest thing I had to do was write my resignation letter, I know that I really wanted to leave but it also felt like I was giving up , I gave ‘excuses’ asides from the real reason I wanted to leave because it was just easier that way. I am not one that knows how to respond to eye service very much. While I have not totally left my ‘current’ Job the conditions are a lot better now.
I agreed with my husband to work with him for a year and we do an evaluation after the year and if I didn’t enjoy it as much I will get another Job, that looked like the best for me and I was so grateful to God for this. The Amazing part? It’s a Photography Company. The Photography that I kuku wanted to learn with him before. I officially started working in September and still in the getting-my-feet-wet stage and learning about the business but I must say that it’s been a wonderful learning experience and I won’t trade it for anything.
I am a stay at home working wife – This usually comes with ‘mum’- hehehe Not yet! I work from home and only get to leave home weekends that there is an event I want to attend and Sundays. I am still learning to balance the timing and some days I get it right, some days I don’t and other days I just pretend I am jobless.
I feel very disorganized and I am afraid it will show in my writing, my lack of direction these days and my absolute lack of structure is majorly because I was – and still- trying to get my rhythm in this new arrangement to work smart and be productive.
You see that thing that keeps holding me back from writing?
I have let it go today!!! Can I hear an Amen? So, over the next couple of days I will be sharing ‘Life lately’ and some of the things that have held me back from writing.
So, Does Anyone else out there work from home? What has the experience been like? any productivity tips for me? and What do you think about my new design?
Would love to hear from you 🙂