“I’m tired of being inside my head. I want to live out here, with you.”  – Colleen McCarty, Mounting the Whale

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You know how Facebook sends you 4 years back “On this day”? It’s always been bitter-sweet for me to see some of those updates because they mostly contain links, links to my old blog. Sometimes I cringe reading some of the old posts and other times I just have a very sweet smile on my face. Looking back at those times and how easy it was for me to just click the “publish” button makes me miss those times. I won’t say i’ve changed but I think the world has become a more global village and what didn’t use to be a cause for concern, now is.

At the time, once I was convinced in my spirit that I could put something out there, I didn’t care if it was sensitive information that could hurt me in future or just simple random things, I just put it out there and share away. Overtime (due to alot of factors) I have become overly cautious and shielded myself from being vulnerable online. One of the reasons I started writing was to share my life and be generous with it without holding back, talking about the things that everyone doesn’t want to talk about from my experience and if I’ve not experienced it use my platform to tell it from another person’s experience and I have over analysed and missed out on what it is that I originally set out to do.

16 Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand – shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven. Matt 5:16 MSG

My concerns ranges from monitoring sprits online (You really don’t want to see what I get from my stats that people are searching about me) to “Who is really reading this stuff anyways?” then I don’t finish the article in my journal or in my draft and stick to the safe stuff. I have quite a number of titles with unwritten articles and a number of drafts too. To think that one of the things my husband loves about me is the ability to not over analyse stuff and just go for it then think about it later and correct any mistakes. Like, I hit publish and edit the article after, not waiting for the conditions to be perfect before things are done, while I still have that to some degree and for some other things like making business decisions etc. somewhere along the line I lost it for this blog and I am hoping this challenge will help me get back.

What I am saying is this, sometimes we tend to over analyse things/ideas/business/anything, and the key word here being “over”, so much that it gets overwhelming and we don’t do anything all together and the world is missing out on the awesomeness that it could’ve birthed or you(the creative) will be missing out on the growth that could’ve happened to you in that process. I understand the need to get things right, put your best foot forward and get it out to the world perfectly but trust me if it is not perfect, the world will be alright. I had to remind myself that being careful about “my life” can be a legit reason for me to not want to be vulnerable about it, but I have to understand that it is way beyond me. There is a responsibility to deliver as a steward of the life that God has given me and I must not forget that.

I really want to encourage us to stop over analysing and getting overwhelmed – If you are anything like me – and get things done.

Do you over analyse stuff before you eventually do it? Has it helped or done otherwise? Talk to me! 

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Written by Arike